My wife won't let me have sex without a condom, for various reasons for which I cannot discuss with her. Firstly, this always damaged our sex life. Secondly, I now know it is forbidden.Is relations with her more forbidden than masturbation? I am being torn apart by my evil inclination. I feel desperately in need of sexual satisfaction.What can I do? I love her, she's a wonderful mother, she has become a somewhat observant, though she will not consider mikvah etc. I am afraid I am losing control. I have broken down here and there and engaged in masturbation. I have heard that this is terrible and I am deeply repulsed at myself. What can I do, in a practical way. I am afraid my thoughts will become obsessions etc.