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Hi, This issue, just as with all other addictions, is the result of a extreme occupation with ones self. There is no sence of "other" in an addicts mind. Going to Kabbalists, saying Tikkunim etc is very nice and gives one a breif sence of feeling better about them sleves, but in the end it is meerly a false sense of sobrity. Just as there is in the physicle universe laws to everything, so to are there laws that gouvern the mind the difference being that not many people know what they are. You would'nt bring you car to a Kabbilist to get repaired, you might do it in addition to bringing it to a car mechanich, and with a broken mind there is know difference. you have to bring it to the people that know how it works so it can be repaired, in addition to praying and tikkunim etc. You need to be shown how to focus on others and not on your self, this has to be shown, dem_onstart_ed taught. it is like walking, like anything else that requires knolwdge and skill if one is going to succede. Kabbalists, Prayer, tikkunim unless accompanied by work, effort accepting responasability, knowldge, learning, action is superstion and vodoo. The purpose of creation is becomeing Tzelem Elokim, to focus our efforts and intentions on those around us, the opposite is focusing on ones self. For a man, focusing on others is not a natural state of being, he is born with a clenched fist, this means he has to be taught and he has to practice, he needs to be shown. the tradgey of our generation is that most of us were never shown. we were never taghut, we were never shown how the car works, we are still babies, and if we are not shown we grow into mature children practiced at the art of self occupation. This does not release us of our obligation to know. we are still obligated to find a teacher to show us the way. It is imoperative you go to the people that know the practicalitese of this affliction, imersing in a Mickveah does not help you when you are face with an internet connection in a room by yourself. what helps you is knowing what is going on with you emotioanlly at that point in time, being aware of where you are at, knowldge of what is about to happen, knoldgeof who you are and how you respond, how you will respond, the ins and outs of how your mind works, and then knowing what to do. And yo can only be shown this, you can not figure this out y yourself because you are allrwady immersed in self deception, you need to be LEAD out of Egypt, you can not walk out.
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